No, thank you.

The first time this happened to me... I was shocked and then so incredibly sad and filled with grief.
I never managed to get angry.
I just felt that he was crazy (which he was, literally) and I couldn't get angry at someone who wasn't in their right state of mind.
I wished nothing but the best for him.

Now, I am angry.
I have never been this infuriated before.
I am not angry that he has left me or broken another promise.
I'm angry that he has left his daughter.
I'm angry that he didn't exhaust every method to earn the right to get a divorce.
I'm angry that he is repeating the pattern of his parents when he is so angry at them for not taking care of him and putting him first.
I'm angry that he is a selfish man.
Who runs out on a six month old baby?

The reality is I have been so worried that I would never find someone like him again.
God, I hope I never do!


I am so done with all of this.
If this is who he is going to be.
If this is all he has to offer.
No, thank you.
I'm good.